hello nobody

hi, everybody, nobody, this is not my first blog acturally, the reason i move here is because i can't bear to write under the known people's eyes any more. remember in old days? people always record their daily life or happy thought or complaint on the diary book which is also highly personal that is not allowed to be open by others. yes, i admire thay way of writing because that is purally what we think about. but now, look what i've written before -- all of them are rubbish since every article is not just based on myself only, but a lot many other people, friends, strangers, for some purpose that would never come out but still existed.

so now, i decide not to chase that little hope for any reason, i just want to be myself. everybody is alone in this world, unavoidiable, the difference is only sit in whether u admit it or realise it. unforturanitly, i realized it and have to admit it -- extreme painful process, and thanks to someone i used to struggle to. without u and ur family, i may stay in a beautiful dream but far from the reality. i used to try to catch the truth in that dream, with some so-called pain, but i recogenized that it would never come out because there is no through way between these two worlds.

here is a totally strange place for me. fantasitc, isn't it? i feel free that appear from betraying. betraying is the most beautiful thing in this hopeless world because it represents the liberty that, satirely, is what human beings chased in the whole history.